(Time reference: 2002) I should have realized right away that things were not right with me. By nature, I am a pretty easy-going person; but just prior to my 40th birthday, although outwardly I seemed the same as always, I found I was not handling things well inside myself - not at all. Finally, there came an afternoon when I called and left my husband a phone message, simply asking him if he could come home a little early if possible so we could talk. He cancelled all appointments and flew home immediately, imagining all kinds of far-out reasons for my call. This may give you some understanding of how uncharacteristic even such a small request was for me. Had one of the boys mouthed off with me? Had I finally had enough of a particularly trying friend? What could this emergency be?
... I thought I'd sounded rather nonchalant. ;-)
It really was a fairly small thing that I was fretting over, and M laughed at my worry; but he quickly saw that however much he might think my response was an over-reaction, it was very real. He helped me to get through my dilemma over the next few days, then gently suggested, "Shy, do you think this might be hormonally related?" Only seconds before had that thought occurred to me. It could just be.
I picked up What Your Doctor Might Not Tell You About Peri-Menopause by John Lee from my local library and began reading. Normally, I prudently finish researching before taking action, but this time I went straight to my local health food store and purchased a recommended jar of progesterone cream, wasting no time in beginning to rub it into my skin daily before I'd even finished the book. I could stop using it later if this turned out to be a crock, but I wanted relief from my anxiety NOW. Every day I would ask my husband, seeking his reassurance, "are you still that wonderfully supportive man? because I'm still that crazy lady." Eventually the symptoms subsided with only very occasional reoccurances, and I have continued the use of this cream, roughly in a three weeks on/one week off routine for the past eight years.
Recently, I have had an increase in taxing situations come up in my life for which I have needed to rely heavily upon His strength and comfort, as well as the vitality of prayer and deep reserves in my spiritual walk. All has been supplied, but I noticed that I'd begun to have restless nights of sleep coupled with annoyingly interruptive night sweats and then periodic daily hot flashes. The lightbulb went off the other morning as I realized I have been negligent in administering my routine application of progesterone cream during this same season.
I am two days back into the swing of it, and time will be needed to build up this defense in my system; but I am grateful for the natural avenue of relief that is available here. I encourage you to look into this yourself if you find you are getting of a certain age and meeting up with unusual challenges, either mentally or physically. It has been a wonderful resource of help to me.
Blessings to your health!
Update: Three weeks later, not a hot flash or night sweat to trouble me at all.